marmartian

ATTENTION ARTS YORK GRADE 11:

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 01:10:12 GMT

hello hello hello!

Semi is coming up (very soon), and I've heard some talk about getting a limo to take those of us planning to attend to the event. It would be fun and memorable, and we could pick one house/location to meet at, and/or get ready at, and take lots of pictures and the whole deal. We would, obviously, all split the cost, and between the maximum number of people we can fit, it shouldnt be too expensive.

SO-If you are planning to attend Semi next Friday, and can commit to paying a reasonable cost, please let me know by this Saturday! After I know how many people are interested, I'll get quotes for the prices. If more than 10 people are interested, it will be less than $40/person, but again, I'll need to have a rough number to give you a more accurate quote.

Please let me know a.s.a.p, and most definately before this Saturday (yes, that means you have two days to let me know. I'm sorry for the rush.)

Love you all and really&truely...incredible job on the shows...we've all grown -so- much and its beautiful.

Loooveeee, Mar

kissing you...

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 04:54:24 GMT

There are so many things I've been wanting to say, and so so many things I've been wanting to do and I'm about to say and do each and every one of them.

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 22:26:04 GMT

SSoooo i know that Live journal is no longer the it thingggggg.....BUT i have a VERYYY important question that i NNEEEEEEEEEEEED answered asap!!!!!!!!!
If you were at a party...
what song would have to come on to make you go absolutely crazy dancing????

answer with 1...2...400000 songs...
just answer:)

thankkkkks
p.s happy birthday leigh<3

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 02:05:08 GMT

So life has been pretty crazy lately. Busy..new...packed. But just now I realized I've been lingering in the past. I think it's time to move forward, and that's exciting.
Things get so crazy so fast, if you don't stop to look around once in a while-you might miss something.
So, here's to fresh starts , memories that havent happened yet, and all the things i suspect are headed my way.

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 16:32:06 GMT

Mmm Its Tuesday morning, and I'm online googleing (googling?) room redecorating ideas. It's my new favourite thing to do online...even if I never find anything I'll ever use!
That's really all I've been up to lately-but it's coming along so nicely! As of this morning the painting is officially DONE! Yes! It took about a week in total to clean it (it was my brothers room, he moved out a year ago, but never cleaned the craphole up...this is the first time we've seen the floor since we moved in and he was three). Tomorrow he turns nineteen-when did he get so old? when did i get so old? Does anyone else feel like the last four or so years happened without your even noticing. I sure do. Anyways, yesterday my brother came over so we could celebrate it birthday. I'm pretty broke after buying myself house warming gifts for my new room (I know, I know...), so i gave him 19 hershey's kisses with a written reason for each one, extracting various things he's done for me (some he knew about, some he didn't) throughout my lifetime. He seemed to really like it.
I sort of feel like my brother just came into my life in the last year. Before he moved out we didn't really have any sort of relationship. But now we have what I've always envied my friends about who had older siblings they had a relationship with. Its nice that I can appreciate it, and that is feels fresh. But it's still very new to me.
Anyways, I'm off to IKEA for some room-decor shopping!
Ta ta!

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 17:26:33 GMT

camp was the best best best time I've ever had there. And now i'm home, and i'm glad I"m home...because if i had stayed, there was no way it couldve been as good as it had already been!
It feels good to be home. Now there's the moving of bedrooms, socializing, etc.
and yesterday i got an ipod.
Hows everyone's summers been?/what are you doing untill school?
mar

mmmhmmmm...!

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 21:26:43 GMT

HOW good does it feel to be DONEEE????
SOo good. I think we all needed this right about...now.

So basically, here's the thing: I love you guys. I mean, i really, really love you guys. Because of this, naturally, i dont want to lose touch with everyone over the summer. So I'm proposing an idea (lightbulb turns on), involving YOU giving ME your mailing adress, and ME mailing YOU while I'm at camp, and YOU (hopefully but not necessarily) mailing ME back!
This way, we can let eachother know what's going on and keep contact (which i really want to do).
So if you give me your mailing address, I promise to mail you somthing sweet and special, So email them to me before Saturday, slash call me slash leave them here if you secretly want to be stalked by creepy online creepers.

and If i dont talk to you before i leave, have an -amazing- summer and next year is going to be just as good as the last,
so until then,
ta-ta, all, and be well :)

p.s yesterday, I'd swear Yoda was in the car next to me.

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 20:40:46 GMT

Ahh, Summer love, I can feel it in the air...
part of me wants to be a part of it, but part of me already is...i mean, you really CAN feel it in the air!
So maybe if the courage gremlins could just sneak into my room and plant a bit of courage into my little head sometime soon, maybe I will feel it too (more than i already do).

Why are we both so shy?

advertising my social life?

Wed, 03 May 2006 22:46:43 GMT

If you like films,
and festivals that contain them
maybe you want to come with me this Friday?
It will be fun :) I promise
Anyways, I can just bring one person, but if you're even just barely interested, let me know.

Mar

I grade today an A

Wed, 03 May 2006 03:33:14 GMT

In one day, and one day alone, I:

-politely debated my terribly ignorant science teacher (and won)
-dealt with something I've been avoiding
-took a small-to-medium sized risk
-had the best time with Jamie after school (lets just say, it included singing (not well, i might add), getting Jamie stuck through my bathroom window, watching the sky go to sleep on my roof, watching the kinark dvd, and talking about ev-er-y-thing!)
-played guitar (which i haveeenntt been doing enough-itskillingme)

I feel like I'm on a role...
and the sweater song just came on...
sigh.
See you Thursday :)

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 02:26:07 GMT

There is something about you I would like to capture
Maybe in a photograph, I haven't really thought this through
But then
The best things to have ever come from my hands, my mouth, my eyes,
I had never thought twice about before
So maybe i will just go with this
maybe, just maybe, I'll pull through

What A Beautiful Day

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 21:45:11 GMT

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 02:24:23 GMT

Friends, Cottage, Puppy, Old Times, New Times
Hoping this works

A True Story...

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 00:32:38 GMT

1: "Hey, what about her?"
2: "Isn't she kind of...bigger?" (laughs)
1: "Man, you're an idiot"
2: "What?!"
1: "What the fuck is wrong with you? She's pretty, man, and she looks healthy, not some fucking girl in a magazine. What about her smile and her eyes? I think she's (whispers) beautiful "
2: (rolls eyes) "just forget it"
Me (turns around) : (to 1) "Thanks" (to 2) "I wouldn't have gone out with you anyways"

Today was a great day, because after I left work i picked up Glamour magazine, which had a feature on a plus size model who, according to them, "defines what sexy is".
And I couldn't agree more.

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 23:16:09 GMT

I got the job :)

It pays well, i work when i want/where I want, and i make people feel good.

And no, i am not a prostitute.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 01:39:05 GMT

Sometimes in the summer I just stand outside and look at the sky at night. Each summer it means something different to me, but at the same time, each summer it means something.
I think i may have been looking for the piece of the puzzle I've been unknowingly holding in my right hand.
It's time to let go

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 18:30:48 GMT

Everything seems to be happening lately...
clown...done
standup...finished
march break...today's my last day to lounge

CMTC starts tomorrow.
I've been waiting for this since November.
Hooollly Shit.
Here we go.

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 01:51:19 GMT

So, i know i just wrote...but im in one of those Lj type moods, so here i go..
This weekend was so fantastic...friday was fabulous (i really do love seeing friends' shows. escpecially when theyre good!, saturday was early to the gym, man on fire and general lovliness , then the night ended with waiting until midnight for Court, then the fun begannnnn, good night, good night....and today was hairdying-gymgoing-creepmeeting-bageleating-laughattacking-summerplanning-goodness.
Sounds like Nat's was a success (good to hear) and Semi sounded better than it was last year

and tomorrow is tomorrow is tomorrow which is scary which is none other but OUR STANDUP.
I just figured out how to get there...lets just say, come, or be a rectangle.

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 03:28:35 GMT

You know, this is good.
I'm learning not to care about the things i shouldn't care about,
all the little pokes and prods and people that I never should have bothered with in the first place.
But i have and i do and i will.
But then again- when you bother, you care and when you care you're supposedly effected so you know, i like to bother.

It's 10:20 and i'm not at home. My inner-nerd says I can't stay up this late on a thursday. My inner-nerd also likes to sometimes open up a dictionary to a random page and learn a new word every now and then. Like Hexatragon.

...The witch never melted, did she?

I think you should leave me with a message of love and inspiration and crazyness and cute things liiike those little hearts i dont know how to do but wouldnt do even if i knew how because well it just wouldnt feel right

love, love, love
all you need is love
doo--dooo-doodoodoo
all you need is love
doo doo dooodoodoo
all you need is love, love,
love is all you need

p.s i made up 'hexatragon'. it doesnt really exist. just thought you should know incase you felt that urge to sound intellegent and tried to subtelly slip it into a sentence when you're trying to impress a girl or something. because then you'd sound like a real ass. and we wouldnt want that now, would we?

signing off of the most pointless post ever

"So I'm Walking Down The Street One Day, and..."

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 01:04:33 GMT

In my head there is a person. She is holding a rose and pulling off each petal day by day. I am excited to see what lies beneath the pettles. We will all see it for the first time the first time.
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Roses + umoja + doing my standup + hot showers + fun bus rides + smacking Dara for being a dumbass + understanding science (or convincing myself I do while DEFINATLEY failing a quiz while not being able to stop my uncontrollable laughter at how much i long to be in applied) + strange dreams + Jell-O being spat out + general love and friendship-ness has made this day spectacular. ah, yay.

I have to much to look forward to in the next few months... sweet 16's, standup, CMTC meetings, CMTC, auditions, shows, gym results...even a date :)

I think we should all have one giant Grade 10 sleepover at my house one day. All 50 million of us in one room. Wait, actually, that would be sweaty and gross. (rewind..doodaodoodood.....) All 50 million of us in one house.

:D

When you don't realize what you've remembered until you've forgotten it again

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 18:49:51 GMT

This whole week was just obscure - but I think everything I'd like to say has already been said. You know how i feel about clown and our shows and the fact that I won't say it's over because I just don't think it is. What has ever completely come to an end? The only thing that ever will is eventually your life-and even that theory is easily arguable.
It just felt so good that the contrast between then and now makes me feel so hollow sitting here typing this.
I had an audition for a music video of a band I've never heard of yesterday, but apparently they opened for an awards show recently-so maybe i should be excited? I'm trying to remember what it was called...marble index? yes. Marble Index.
I don't know, look 'em up.

Its reached the point where my favourite class apart of drama is Math. Maybe it's because my teacher is so vibrant...maybe it's because there's eight people in the class..maybe its because my other classes are history (I'm yet to find a way to deal), and Science (I went monday. it was my first and last science class all week).
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But as hard as it is to get through, we do
and there's always somthing to get the taste out of your mouth
and you can almost always shower when you feel like you need a fresh start again.
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You know the little things people do sometimes...tiny effortless ways to show that they care about you or love you or whatever you'd like to make of it? The ones that take nothing to give but mean everything to get? like an arm-squeeze, or a kiss on the forehead, or that spark you feel when holding eye contact with someone for a split second longer than usual,and it's like you have a secret with them.

Thanks for those moments.
I keep them close.

Because I'm So...(i guess i cant say cool).... whack?...

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 02:31:05 GMT

LETS SEE HOW MANY WE CAN GRAB, SUZY!
Fill out
why?
because i said so
(why else, dufus?)
(and yes, i just said dufus.)

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

Oh, it's what you do to me...

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 01:18:38 GMT

Life feels so nice right now.
Yes, nice.
Exams-no problem.
modelling-its a slow season.
Job- on its way

If you want to know whats going on in my life...why not just ask me?
you know, i love to talk.

(our friends will all make fun of us and we'll just laugh along because we know that none of them have felt this way)

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 02:16:35 GMT

You know when you should be over somthing, but as pathetic as it may be, you're not?
Im like that.
I dont even want it anymore to be honest-but its still there. somewhere.

Alot's happening, lots of good, lots of change. Change is crazy, eh? I mean, really.
Things are tough, busy and confusing as hell but still somehow manage to be great.
How does that work, anyways?

I have an engish project where Rebecca and I are studying God, religion and Faith in the future. I got a bunch of articles on it today, and i was so so interested...i think this just may turn into somthing I like.
Drama is amazing (who's with me?!) All through the fall is was great, then it slowed down...but since monday its been so fresh and so empowering for me. I think that describes it well for me...empowering.
When I did it at Centauri, it was amazing...but not so changing. It was changing, dont get me wrong. just not SO changing. Also, this summer, there was so much other stuff running through my mind every second of the day-it was hard to put all i had into it like im doing (or trying to) now.

Tomorrow is showtime!! ahh im so excited to see everyone...really, I will love it, even if its horrible (which it wont be, im sure!)
...
ahhhh!

Everything around me is changing, and i want change to happen in me too. I've been hanging out with the same people all year, and although i love them so much, etc...i want to try new things too. I hate being so seperated from so many people just to be with a few. Find me at lunch or call me somtime, yeah? Im feeling isolated by my lack of variety in people

P.s you're beautiful

p.p.s i dont mean the song

Delicious, delicious holiday spirit...

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 20:11:36 GMT

So lets start from way back when...
school had just let out, not like any of us where learning much anyways. Well actually, i take that back. I always find that skipping teaches me more than anything i learn in class...how many math classes have you had to discuss issues that actually effect you, or make you feel somthing. How many science classes make you appreciate things, or come to realizations? All of which happened to me while skipping on Friday. strange and rediculous, eh?
So anyways, my break has consisted of get-togethers, feeling good, relaxing, procrastinating work i shouldnt have to do,sleepovers, celebrating religions other than my own, shopping, spa-days, and general good times. I needed this break, mentally, physically, and all the other "allys" you can think of.
mmm...its cold, rainy and snowy outside, but im inside, wearing jeans and a shirt i bought while shopping with courtney yesterday, and the monkey-slippers Ryan bought me.Also, im listening to the Jack Johnson, so even if its rediculous outside, its hawaii in here (my head).
Tonight is a hunukah party, then par-tay at Courts (and by par-tay ofcourse, i mean kraft dinner, a movie fest, an amazing talk, card-playing, and friendship-building...I like it that way. Its been that way for about 12 years now. Lets not change that, ok?).
Christmas was interesting, but nice. I went to church, listened the a man attempt with all his might to convert me. It didn't work, but it's always nice to see such an effort. But really, when i blocked out the religious aspect of what he was saying, the message was a good one. He was talking about how even if your family is "broken" or going through a tough time, youre a part of a spiritual family, which will always be there for you, and all that jazz (jamie's had an influence on me, clearly). i like that idear- escpecially since my brothers home, but i dont think he'll have that right for much longer. oy.
Also, for my centauri folk out there..my wish bracelet came off yesterday while i was getting dressed. Its funky, because my wish came true-than it came off.
I wished for contenment and happiness even if things were'nt perfect.